I had to do the hardest thing in my life today. I had to put my cat of 16 years to sleep. She had been there when I went away to college, during the abusive relationships, during the lonely times, during the poor times where I couldn't even afford catfood. I would have to scrape the mold off my leftovers from my fridge and feed those to her. My wonderful most friendliest cat who got shot by a pellet gun by someone who hated cats, who got locked in a footlocker for a week and still survived.

Last sunday I had taken her to the vet because she wasn't walking so well and had taken a tumble off my tall bed. She was put on pain medicines,and she seemed to be doing better. However, starting thursday night she started vomiting (on my bed). We're not sure if the medicine caused a bleeding ulcer or not, but for the past 3 days she was puking up dark vomit. (later I find out that was blood in her vomit) She stopped eatting and drinking. I was forcing water into her via syringe in her mouth, but she wasn't happy about it. There was still more output of liquids than input. Her problems could of also been linked to the Nutro CatFood recall, but due to finances I will never know.

She was keeping me going, especially with Dave being gone and Guillermo back in training with Guide Dogs. I now have no pets, no companions here in my new apt. Dave has been notified, but of course can't do anything about the situation. I am in mourning.